Back: For Good This Time

So yeah: I haven't been posting as much lately. I know. I was grounded on and off. But I should be good now. Even when school starts up, I am going to make it a habit to get on here and post at least once a week.

I really don't want to go over everything that has happened in the past 5 months. It's a pain, and I don't want to have to relive all of that. so yeah...

But here's my status now:
I'm at governor's school for 2 more weeks and 4 days, then off to piano camp for a week. Then back, just in time for summer band.
Michael and I are still together, and doing well. There were some rocky parts for a while, but we got those smoothed out. That and the fact that we're engaged.
Mainly, my friends right now are Whitney, Jesal, and Michael (yes your b/f can be your friend. stupid close-minded people). But yeah. I think I've limited it because of governor's school. But I don't really feel like that social of a person anymore.
Governor's school by the way is freaking awesome.

That's all the main stuff. I just got off of my 5-day break, and was so ready to come back. The tension at home was killing me. When I walked back to my dorm room, everything just felt so much better than it has. So hopefully I can enjoy these last two weeks here, and piano camp.
Lindsay Payne and I have talent show soundcheck today, and talentshow tomorrow. So that should be fun. Wish me luck!

Anyway: I'll write more later.

-Peruvian Peanut

Months and months....

Wow, I really have to start updating this thing more. Bad things, is I'm still tech. grounded. which sux major ass. but yeah. doesn't really matter, noone reads the damn thing anyway. eh: for myself then.

*sigh* home life is complete and total crap right now. shitty beyond belief. i thought it was bad before. the subject of my worth came up, though not directly. weight, grades, helpfulness around the house did. overall: i'm no good. so worthless i am. sheesh; wouldn't want to take up anymore of their time or money... or air... maybe i'll just go kill myself now...
... nah: they're not worth it.

unfortunately, the stress and depression did lead me to cut.. but just a little.... *sigh* it really sux. i haven't been eating much either, but that's more because i'm never hungry.... eh. whatever.

meanwhile, everything outside of home is going well. michael and i are doing awesomely. is that a word? oh well... having fun with my friends and stuff at school too. oh yeah, and prom is coming up too... haha: michael has to wear a tux. anyway.

mmm.... poetry! wee...
---
Scissors, knives, blades
But nothing cuts me like
your words.
You worry about
the damage, the pain,
I inflict upon myself.
Turn your eyes, instead,
to a mirror,
to see where
the real reason
lies.
I'll stop hurting myself
when you do.
---

...so yeah: obv to my parents. but hey, whatever.

anyway: going to go post other stuff now...

bye!!