Months and months....

Wow, I really have to start updating this thing more. Bad things, is I'm still tech. grounded. which sux major ass. but yeah. doesn't really matter, noone reads the damn thing anyway. eh: for myself then.

*sigh* home life is complete and total crap right now. shitty beyond belief. i thought it was bad before. the subject of my worth came up, though not directly. weight, grades, helpfulness around the house did. overall: i'm no good. so worthless i am. sheesh; wouldn't want to take up anymore of their time or money... or air... maybe i'll just go kill myself now...
... nah: they're not worth it.

unfortunately, the stress and depression did lead me to cut.. but just a little.... *sigh* it really sux. i haven't been eating much either, but that's more because i'm never hungry.... eh. whatever.

meanwhile, everything outside of home is going well. michael and i are doing awesomely. is that a word? oh well... having fun with my friends and stuff at school too. oh yeah, and prom is coming up too... haha: michael has to wear a tux. anyway.

mmm.... poetry! wee...
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Scissors, knives, blades
But nothing cuts me like
your words.
You worry about
the damage, the pain,
I inflict upon myself.
Turn your eyes, instead,
to a mirror,
to see where
the real reason
lies.
I'll stop hurting myself
when you do.
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...so yeah: obv to my parents. but hey, whatever.

anyway: going to go post other stuff now...

bye!!