this past week has drained me- physically, emotionally, mentally... pretty much everything. lets see- monday i had practice for the choir concert, tuesday was the band concert, wednesday i didn't really do anything, thursday was the choir concert, friday was prom, saturday was my piano concert, and yesterday i felt like crap. well... i still feel like crap, but that's not the point here. *sighs* some other stuff happened too... angela claimed (to rachel) that she did not know david and i were going out, and that she and david made out at his party. there were excuses- "they were really drunk" "she didn't know" etc... still does not mean anything. i ended up crying a little after rachel told me. got my make-up all messed up (weak forced laugh)... *sigh*i confronted david about it, and he said i wasn't the first person to tell him this. he denied having done it, and i want to believe him, but i am being rational too. i am not going to let my heart win me over on this one. i need to be satisfied mentally and rationally as well. god i hope he didn't. if he tells me the truth, he will have my respect, no matter what it is. he may not have my approval, but he will have my respect. if he did do it and he comes clean, i might possibly consider staying with him, though it is unlikely. i mean, if he moves to colorado and goes to a party- there is nobody there who would tell me. not saying that he did, i just want to keep an open mind for right now. i dont want to break up with him, i really dont. but if he did... i dont think he did though. i really dont. i dont want to at least. i guess until i get to talk to him and angela at the same time (which i am planning to do tomorrow) then i will have to settle with undecided.*sighs*... oh, and thanx rach for trying to cheer me up.
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