happy happy happy

i am actually in a pretty good mood today. there are a couple of reasons for this- first off, david called. so i got to talk to him, and that made me happy. he explained why he wasn't at 4th period thur- he got caught (i knew it!!!). we talked for a while... okay, he talked mostly, there was quite a bit of silence, and i said maybe 10 real sentences. anybody in white hall can tell you that i rarely talk on the phone. i dont know what it is- i can talk to everybody else about stuff, but david- hm, its not that i cant, i just dont feel the need to. he already knows everything about me, and all the other stuff i normally talk about with other people (everyday occurences) seems exceptionally trivial when i talk to him. nothing is really all that important when i am with him (or talking to him, in this case). oh well...

what is weird is that several times he sounded a lot like rusty, which weirded me out. they actually have quite a bit in common- but i like david better. and i'm not just saying that either. there is just something about him... argh, i can't explain it. i doubt i ever will be able to-----

while i am on the subject= every summer my parents and i go out of state somewhere and yesterday my mom asked me if i wanted to go to colorado this summer. i said only if we could go see david, and she said of course. any of my other boyfriends i've had in the past i am pretty sure they would say no- they haven't really approved of any of my boyfriends (they sort of have good reason to), but they like david and he is (after rusty) probably the "worst" (in my parents terms) guy i've dated. just with all the stuff he's done i mean. but they like him the best. weird... oh well- that makes me happy.

what is hilarious is that david told audrey to call and tell me why he wasn't there- she called me after he did. she made a big deal out of him and i going out, also. she was all "you better keep me updated on what is happening between you two!" how annoying... just like audrey

that is pretty much all that happened today. i cut the grass, so i was able to burn off some of this fat (yes, david, i know- i'm TOO skinny... blah blah blah- we're never going to agree on this subject...) but whatever. i haven't been depressed in the least bit today (wow! that's a first in a long time) so yeah- but tomorrow i will probably end up with a knife to my wrist of a lot of pills in my hand (overly optimistic, aren't i?!?) hehe- whatever- as long as i am good now, that is all that matters.

"parting is such sweet sorrow,
that i will say good night
till it be morrow..."